That Girl With The Weird Voice

Life’s been weird lately. I feel like I lose control over my self. I don’t know what I want and it scares me. There are times when I just sit while looking at an empty space and think, what should I do to make this weird feeling disappear. I think food helps.

It's 1:06AM here in Utsunomiya. . I know it's late but the sudden idea that just popped in give me the urge to turn the laptop on and write. Yesterday I read an instagram-story-series from Lippielust, you can check on her instagram account (highlighted story) Then something struck in my mind: Why don't I start to post more frequently here, more consistent, and push myself to be more productive since I have a lot of free time now. So after a long time of the thinking, by a lot I mean 15minutes, I came up with this: I want to start making a series in my blog. A big commitment that I'm (not really sure but) willing to try. And I think it'll help me to have a guidance of what to write. So wish me luck and hope that I can drop the 'pilot' post of the series. And for now, Goodnight! Ajus

Hellooo, Wow, it's only 2 days from my previous post but here I am, starting to ramble already. Bear with me. As I said before, I'm so excited because I have something big going on for my life here, but it's not gonna happen until 2 weeks so we'll get there eventually. For now, I want to brag about how I just did a 8.6km bicycle ride! My route for today  I can't say I don't feel a bit sore here and there, but hey, I made it. Never thought I'd ever do this before. I can't share the detail right now but here's the thing: You'll be happier when you least expecting. But that doesn't mean you're not doing your best. --- Well I gotta go, there's chicken to be cut, garlic to be chopped, and stomach to be filled. Ajus

Hello, How's life? Mine is getting a bit unpredictable lately. But we'll talk about it soon For now I wanna tell you how I things started to change (as I mentioned in my previous post ). - - - When we (Bagus & I) first knew that Bagus is gonna be assigned in Japan for a year, we really had no idea of what is waiting for us there. Why? Before I ramble even further, I better tell you where in Japan we will live. For short, Utsunomiya is a capital and the largest city of Tochigi Perfecture. But, it is not Tokyo-kind-of big city (read here for more info about Utsunomiya). It is about 128km away from Tokyo, 2hours by Shinkansen. Back to topic. As I said, we both had no idea at all of what is waiting for us in Utsunomiya, well especially me. But eventually I managed to do a bit different (but better) than I originally planned. I finally cook. When I first came here, I had nothing to do because my Japanese class didn't start until a month after my arrival...