That Girl With The Weird Voice

I’m starting to see the appeal of pets. While people debating whether they’re a cat or dog person, I wasn’t even a pet person. I never feel it, the attachment that people have with their pets, until.. Probably couple of weeks ago, there is this one fat cat that came into my house, and my husband -being a kinda cat person himself- fed it with the cat food that he bought for feeding stray cats in the area. And so this cat regularly came. Upon seing how ‘tame’ or domesticated this cat is, I started to feed it myself, and I took a liking to this fat cat, that we later on find out is actually pregnant. I probably need to add that other than being pregnant, this cat also has wound on her tail, hence the name Bubun came up. Buntut Buntung.  As the time goes on, she came twice a day, usually when I’m about to go yo work and when I came home or right before bed I usually check and she’s on my front door. But then just now, when I gave her late night dinner, I noticed her tail is getting wor...

16 Januari 2020. 10 hari menuju pertambahan umur. Ngerasa makin tua prinsip hidup jadi makin sederhana. Atau mungkin ini efek 11 bulan hidup di tengah pandemi.  Akhir-akhir ini jadi sering mikir hidup itu sebenernya buat apa sih. Apa yang dikejar? Semakin nanya itu ke diri sendiri, makin sadar kalo setiap orang hidup di dunia itu punya valuenya masing-masing. Yang akhirnya akan mempengaruhi tujuan dan bagaimana mereka menjalani hidup. Ngga ada yang benar atau salah selama ngga saling menyakiti dan merugikan satu sama lain. Selama ini aku sadar kalo hidup orang yang pas dilihat dari luar kayak enak itu pasti ada strugglenya juga, tapi belakangan setelah ngobrol sama temen sebelah meja kantor, aku jadi makin sadar benernya. Apa yang selama ini aku pikir aku tau, ternyata cuma permukaannya. Memang yang orang tunjukkan hanya yang mereka ingin orang lain lihat. Dan setiap orang yang hidup di dunia ini sudah ada porsinya masing-masing. We all lives in our own shoes. Kalau mau 'iri' s...

A year after my last post things has been changed quite a lot.  It's now Sunday.  And my Sunday activity are now meal prepping for our lunch for the next week. While I was standing preparing some ingredients, listening to Taylor Swift newest album, I realised I really enjoy cooking in peace like this (and it was also raining so yeah). Dear self, please keep trying to enjoy every little thing that happen in life. Don't be so busy looking for something you don't have until you can't enjoy what's already be given to you. Be grateful. Ajus.

How far does it take for you to change instead of waiting the other person doing their part?

17:22 When you’re married, you shouldn’t expect to know your spouse completely. Sure, you should’ve done the ‘investigation’ part. But, along the way you’ll still find something that you don’t know about each other. Something that you didn’t think about before. Something completely new. I’ve been in that kind of situation before, and currently is. It takes time to wrap my head around it. To just accept without trying to understand. Because sometimes, understanding something that clearly different from your own believe is impossible. It is always acceptance over understanding. xx Ajus.

I believe every relationship is unique. As much as I believe that every person, no matter how much similar, will always have -at least- one difference to tell them apart. And relationship are even more unique because it consist of two different person trying their best to make it works. This year I'm on my second year of marriage. In this short amount of time I tried, and still trying, to learn 'how to' navigate a marriage. One thing that I've learned is, again, every relationship is unique. It's different from one another. Not every 'love-quotes' or 'marriage-advice' out there are made for us. One simple thing, I read somewhere, a long time ago, an advice about marriage of how we should not be on our phone on bed everyday. Or something like that. It will make us drifting apart from each other. But in this very second, Me and my husband are currently sitting on our bed Me with laptop on my lap, writing this post (on normal day I'...

Minggu, 19 Mei 2019 00:48 Suami, yang udah tidur duluan, tiba-tiba nepok-nepok sambil nanya, 👦🏻 Belum tidur? 👩🏻 Iya, belum bisa. Kamu kenapa kebangun? 👦🏻 Mimpi ngga enak 👩🏻 Apa emangnya? 👦🏻 Mimpi kamu ditangkep satpam 👩🏻 Makanya nepok-nepok? 👦🏻 Iya ngecek masih ada (di sebelah) ngga 👦🏻 *kemudian langsung tidur lagi*

Hello Internet, we meet again. 557 Days. I've been married for that many days. I know it's not that long, but long enough for people to ask us (me & my husband) about kids. And that isn't considered improper or impolite by society, something that I strongly disagree. For us getting married and having kids are two different things. At that time, we were ready to get married, but not ready enough to have kids right away. Our priority was to to know each other much better as spouses. Also, we wanted to enjoy life as a married couple first, just the two of us, considering the fact that we had to move overseas for a year right away after the wedding, the timing was just not right. And then now, four months after we got back to Indonesia, we're still in the same stance as we were 557 days ago. We're not ready yet. The more I think about it, the more not ready I am. Like, in every aspect. In my opinion, having kids means great responsibility. Because contrary...

Saturday night. 10:39 PM. Currently sitting on my bed. Husband playing guitar to a familiar song. I don't know the lyrics. I've just drank a gulp of bottled coffee. It tasted quite okay. But my stomach will totally disagree. It feels funny. Okay, gotta go. Need to finish level 2283 on Gardenscapes. Bye.

Hello, my old friend. My same old problem. My endless night. I can't get my eyes to rest. As usual. A lot of things popping out in the back of my mind the second I close my eyes. Well, I guess I just want to say hello again.

Staring at empty space when suddenly I remember those feeling Of slow & peaceful morning In a small coffeeshop The one where We look each other in the eye And found That everything we need is Right there in front of us And there’s nothing We need to worry All the small bickering The unsolved problem And uneasiness that lingers Disappear with the steam of my Café Au Lait Or as the Japanese say, Cafe Ore.

Hello! Kalau ada yang heran kenapa aku mendadak rajin (lagi), jawabannya karna aku ngga ada kerjaan di Minggu siang ini. Dan suami lagi pergi sama temennya buat nonton Formula Drift (kalau ngga salah ingat). Dan kalau ada yang udah baca postinganku sebelumnya, pasti tau kalau aku belum lama ini jalan-jalan ke Korea, tepatnya Seoul. Seoul menurutku adalah kota yang cukup ramah untuk turis. Transportasi umum di sana gampang dipahami, English sign juga cukup banyak, di daerah ramai turis banyak yang bisa Bahasa Inggris juga. Kayaknya pas buat yang pengen coba solo traveling. Nah walaupun kemarin aku ngga solo traveling, tapi aku pergi sama dua orang yang ngga lebih ngerti dan prepared dibanding aku. So I had to look for helps to the mighty internet. And here I'll share some apps that is not only life but also wallet saver. So help yourself! Subway Korea (by Malang Studio). As you may know, subway di Korea itu terlihat intimidatif untuk orang yang jarang, atau bahkan ngga pe...

Well halo, Setelah 3 bulan akhirnya aku berhasil mengumpulkan niat untuk nulis, mumpung euphoria Korea masih berasa. Sekitar 2 minggu yang lalu aku pergi ke Korea 6 hari 5 malem, bareng 2 temen dari Indonesia. Dan itu adalah pertama kalinya aku bener-bener ngerencanain trip (hampir semuanya) sendiri, mostly itinerary dan transportasi. Dan ternyata bikin rencana traveling itu menyenangkan. That's why I write this, so I'll remember how happy I was. Jadi dari pengalamanku 6 hari kemarin, aku pengen share beberapa hal yang (menurutku) penting untuk disiapkan sebelum berangkat ke Korea (di luar, pastinya, tiket) tanpa travel agent. Ramalan Cuaca (dan temperatur). Kenapa ini penting? Karena bisa menentukan susunan itinerary dan baju yang perlu kita siapkan.   Itinerary. Bikin itinerary itu gampang gampang susah. Kalau mau simple kayak yang aku lakuin kemarin kira-kira gini langkah-langkahnya: List semua lokasi yang pengen kamu da...

Hello Friday The Free-day! I didn't expect it would takes so much time to finally write a new post. Another rambles (and not a series I said before) just because I feel like it. But why it takes so long tho? Becauseeee, the past two weeks has been so crazy, I had a lot of things going on , you may already have an idea from the title but I'm just gonna say it (again) anyway. I have a part time job. A few weeks ago, my friends, Luna & Hasbi, introduce me to another Indonesian people here, Mas Sobi, Najib (his son), and Fauzan. They're all so fun to hang out with but I'll introduce them further later. Long story short, both me and Luna got a contact to a place where Mas Sobi work as a part time worker, and since we were interested to do a part time job, we contacted them, had a (not really feel like) interview, met the Bucho (Department Head), and finally start working on March 27th. So now I'm a part time worker at a cake company. I work from Monday to T...

Life’s been weird lately. I feel like I lose control over my self. I don’t know what I want and it scares me. There are times when I just sit while looking at an empty space and think, what should I do to make this weird feeling disappear. I think food helps.

It's 1:06AM here in Utsunomiya. . I know it's late but the sudden idea that just popped in give me the urge to turn the laptop on and write. Yesterday I read an instagram-story-series from Lippielust, you can check on her instagram account (highlighted story) Then something struck in my mind: Why don't I start to post more frequently here, more consistent, and push myself to be more productive since I have a lot of free time now. So after a long time of the thinking, by a lot I mean 15minutes, I came up with this: I want to start making a series in my blog. A big commitment that I'm (not really sure but) willing to try. And I think it'll help me to have a guidance of what to write. So wish me luck and hope that I can drop the 'pilot' post of the series. And for now, Goodnight! Ajus

Hellooo, Wow, it's only 2 days from my previous post but here I am, starting to ramble already. Bear with me. As I said before, I'm so excited because I have something big going on for my life here, but it's not gonna happen until 2 weeks so we'll get there eventually. For now, I want to brag about how I just did a 8.6km bicycle ride! My route for today  I can't say I don't feel a bit sore here and there, but hey, I made it. Never thought I'd ever do this before. I can't share the detail right now but here's the thing: You'll be happier when you least expecting. But that doesn't mean you're not doing your best. --- Well I gotta go, there's chicken to be cut, garlic to be chopped, and stomach to be filled. Ajus

Hello, How's life? Mine is getting a bit unpredictable lately. But we'll talk about it soon For now I wanna tell you how I things started to change (as I mentioned in my previous post ). - - - When we (Bagus & I) first knew that Bagus is gonna be assigned in Japan for a year, we really had no idea of what is waiting for us there. Why? Before I ramble even further, I better tell you where in Japan we will live. For short, Utsunomiya is a capital and the largest city of Tochigi Perfecture. But, it is not Tokyo-kind-of big city (read here for more info about Utsunomiya). It is about 128km away from Tokyo, 2hours by Shinkansen. Back to topic. As I said, we both had no idea at all of what is waiting for us in Utsunomiya, well especially me. But eventually I managed to do a bit different (but better) than I originally planned. I finally cook. When I first came here, I had nothing to do because my Japanese class didn't start until a month after my arrival...